Reminders

After two and a half years of recovery, medicines, exercise and a healthy diet I went to see my cardiologist. In a very optimistic mood, I requested the suspension of all the medicines, knowing that I followed all procedures strictly, felt very healthy, and had the confidence of finishing a half marathon. For me, I had a heart as healthy and strong as anyone without any previous heart problems, and I thought it was enough time now: I could skip medicines and continue with a healthy life.
Did you forget what happened? Was his answer. After some time, everybody forgets. He said. Those words came to my mind not just as the health issue, but as a reminder of the fragility of our lives. It could end anytime, am I living accordingly? I am, but although I would like to live a 100+ years, life is lent. I got a huge reminder with an earthquake too, and not so long ago when I crossed a highway that I though was one way only. We have reminders from time to time, and I think is only to feed our desire to live, to push us to follow what we want, to make those steps we are afraid of, and to helps us understand we still have to do something here. Is a clear message every time: still have time!! Go, go, go!!!

New posts and update

As the initial objective of this blog, I wanted to describe all the change process that happened during my re-birth, and after all the stages already included, there have not been changes in the way I face life and its situations.
My life as a hole, moved towards an inside search for happiness, a release of self created problems and preoccupations and a complete positive attitude for everything that happens, and I have been living very happy since.
In recent months, I’ve been enjoying all the positive effects of this new way to understand and live a life, having perfect days and playing to win. As every process, during the changes I had to think how to approach situations, and now it’s a natural and fluent new attitude. I’m just looking for new ways to enhance this happiness, of course, all of them internal. No success to date.
As I want to continue writing, I’ll be making updates with not only internal changes as they occur, but daily life situations and thoughts that might catch my attention.
For now, as an update, just lo let you know that I’m very happy with my new life, I’m full of plans and projects, personal projects that keep me dreaming and wanting to live every day at its maximum. Some have been already developed, as my first steps in music, traveling, meditation and physical challenges, and other just in early stages as a future book, speed or a passion that might become a business. There’s so much to do and just 24 hour days!!

Swimming lessons

So I was wondering why the change from China to Brazil. There were many reasons to pick China, but the main reason was spiritual. In the process of looking for happiness, and after realizing the search should be inside, I was looking for a friendly environment to develop spirituality, and nothing like the biggest Buddhist country in the world. I wanted to learn to swim, so I choose a quiet, not very deep pool to begin. Coming to Brazil, and specifically to Sao Paulo, was like falling in the sea for my first swim.
I thought that the process of moving to another country, where I would not have any family or friends, where I would be completely alone for a lot of time, would be easy in China, as westerns are an attraction, many people wants to be friends, and there’s not much social pressure as there is in western countries.
After almost three months in Brazil, I realized that at the end it was better to fall in the sea with high waves and sharks, as swimming was a matter of life and death. There was one weekend I almost drowned, but I remembered that the whole idea was to continue with the interior process and only then I began to float.
Although I loved the city and the country, was very happy with the job I came for, everyone of my colleagues was very special, and all the other issues as exercise, entertainment, food among other were on track, there was something missing. I was loosing the fight to my mind, having external quick sparkles of happiness only, instead of continuing the process of internal search for structural happiness. Feelings I had eliminated long time ago like frustration, envy and loneliness, where slaps that made me realize where I was going.
When finally I was aware that was moving backwards, that my life was trying to make it’s own path again without my consent, I took the wheel and got back on road. Happily I have been writing a roadmap I can always refer to.
As in any process we make mistakes. I took my eyes from the road for a second and when I realized, I was far away from I wanted to be. It’s a lesson that the social strength but overall the mind makes good use of weak times to get a hold of our lives control. Happiness is a continuous process, and a road that requires a lot of attention. Happiness is a verb that implies action, not an adjective that simulates a decision.

Perfect days

There were a lot of empty days before. I would wake up, go to work, go to the gym, and go to bed, nothing special. If those days were erased I wouldn’t mind. I had a plan, and a day like that supported the plan, but the day itself was meaningless.

After my incident, being in the hospital for two weeks and with endless limitations during the first months, I missed a lot of simple things that were present everyday but I wouldn’t value. But after thinking that I almost die, and that I would have lost everything, simple things and moments became very valuable. A second pair of eyes opened in my head and enabled me to enjoy everyday sights.

A perfect day was a difficult to get before. A new business in my job, a great played baseball game, time well spent in a great place with my girlfriend or my friends, something unusual had to happen. With the new pair of eyes, simple days became perfect days. Being able to be healthy, be alive, share with my family and friends, being able to perform activities as good as possible it’s even a reason for satisfaction. 

Yesterday I had a walk with a pair of friends, it wasn’t only a way to get from one place to another, but the walk, the weather, the landscapes, and the time shared made my day a wonderful day. Besides what it is happening in my life and where it’s going, every moment counts, and makes me grateful for being alive.  There’s no way I would let one day escape from my memory now, everyone has joys to remember for a lifetime.

Million dollar baby

What would you do if someone give you a million dollars?
Buy a house? Travel around the world? Study? Give to the ones who need most? Learn about painting, music, or any other art you ever wonder about? Invest to get more for the future? Live on the rent? Party every day? Drink ? Bet? Pay debts? Buy a summer house in Bora Bora? Move to Paris? To Hong Kong? To London? To LA? Start your own business? Read? Built a hotel in a paradise beach? Buy Google shares? Buy more Google shares? Shopping? Shoes? Clothes? Donate it all?
Would you get stressed for the steps to receive the money? Which bank? Which account? A check? Today or tomorrow? Debit card?
Would it be a possibility to leave the money in an account and don’t do anything with it?
I think the answers to those questions are easy, but then why, If everyone of us, received something bigger, greater than just money, something with many more possibilities than currency, as it is to be alive, some of us keep our lives in stand by, letting things come and go and without getting the best use of it?
Many people know that are not satisfied with what they are doing or the way they are living, know what they want to do and how would they be happy, but just stay there waiting for something that is no coming? Would you need help with you million dollars? You need someone to say to you what to do with the money? How to spend it?
A life has millions of times the possibilities money has, but many people just stay with the money at the bank without living the dreams they know they have.
If you have the money, and want to travel to Bali, go buy the ticket!!! Nobody is going to do it for you.
And one prize condition, money it’s no cumulative. You don’t get two lives the next time.

Just an illusion

Why is it that unemployed people go as far as attempting suicide, and people working, dream at 10am about walking barefoot in a lost beach in Thailand?
Well, my perception about jobs changed radically after my death.
At first, my career was my life, I wanted to be CEO of the company I was working for, I dreamed about a business magazine cover with some highlight about my brightness in sales or innovation, I feared nothing, just to come short on those huge expectations I had set, loved business traveling, having breakfast in one country and dinner in other, wanted speed to satisfy client needs, strategic planning, thinking out of the box, surprising competitors with new blue oceans in the industry, and so on. An MBA was an obvious next step, then I would get a regional position and begin to climb the corporate ladder from a higher step. If my job was my life what happened If I quitted or was fired? Well, I would get another life in another company, where a new industry would have different challenges and the game would begin again.
After all the thinking in the hospital, wondering about all the things I could have lost, when I got back to my office, a lot seemed different. Although everything was in the same place, something just didn’t match.
A lot of people get sick after working 14 or 16 hours a day, not eating healthy, not getting enough sleep, and living in a continuous rush, even got divorced. It was a decision: career or family. That didn’t make sense anymore. It did when life was filled with a job, but when working is just one way to get money to use it in what you really want on your free time or on holidays, other forgotten things become a priority. Health, family, friends, knowledge, intellectual growth, resting, admiring, feeling, become priceless and win over any job issue. As my ex boss sister stated: “Work takes a lot of time”
I tried to imagine working without any pay. What kind of job would I accept for free? Not many that I know. So I realized that a career was not what I wanted in life, it’s just the means to get the money we need in this world to pay for what we really want. That’s why many think about beaches and sports while working, because the best scenario would be getting your paycheck while traveling or playing, while really living. A job it’s necessary not just for the money, but for self-esteem, for feeling useful to humanity, for making good use of what we know and what we are good at, for making the best use of our potential, but is just a mean.
Some people work in something that they would do for free, just for the emotion, or for the knowledge they get or create, that’s great, and I think it’s just for a minority, other people work in whatever they can just to pay the bills, it’s a must for the responsibilities they have with kids or debts, that must be a very hard situation, and some other people are able to choose their positions, or at least have options to choose, that’s very nice. But it would be great if everybody understand that there are a lot of priorities before their jobs. Work as hard as you can in your schedule, be as efficient as possible, be creative, supportive, give everything but keep in mind it’s your job, not your life.
There might be cycles too. Workers want to be entrepreneurs, handle their own time and skip bosses, and some entrepreneurs would like the security of a monthly check.
I know a lot of people running their own business, smaller than a previous job, but happier, or ex-workaholics with newborns changing dippers without sleep, but satisfied. There are many reasons or situations that make people understand the role of their jobs in life, but there’s a lot of people killing themselves for raising the stock price for shareholders. Is it worth sacrificing health and family for someone else to change It’s yacht? Is you decision.

Luck?

I don’t have an explanation for the feeling, but clearly people, animals, places, among others, generate energies or sensations that can be perceived in different levels. I think that even animals get that sense, as dogs bark to some people and act tenderly to strangers without any visual reason.
These energies not only are so powerful that can be perceived by others, but have impact on results, are transferred and shared, and might dominate how we think and feel. I even think that a group of those energies can modify physical things or actions.
We all feel good or uncomfortable around some people, and perceive worries and sadness in places like hospitals, but is this something we can get under control? How can we receive good energy and avoid getting contaminated with bad energies?
I might think that we can generate positive or negative energies by ourselves, but we get contaminated too by energies of people around us, and the charge we have influences our days and relations.
Recently I had one of the worst years professionally speaking. Although I didn’t get any warnings or lectures from my boss, everything that could go wrong with my clients went the worst way, and what had good chances went to the basket too. I tried and tried hard for things to generate results, but was frustrating. Even almost impossible things happened for bad, and several times. At first I thought it was just bad luck, but someone told me that I was charged with bad energy and that it showed. At first I didn’t gave it a lot of thought, but a “cleaning” method was proposed and having nothing to loose, I tried.
Well, everything began to change, results were better, and personally I was feeling better too. After this, I began to pay a lot of attention to energies of people and places, whenever I felt something I didn’t like, I rather leave. I began to protect the good vibe I was accumulating, and I kept this by myself.
We might confuse sometimes energy with mood, but there’s a lot of people depressed with kind of good energy, and happy people with horrendous vibes. Although our mood might influence our energy, I believe what we think, the reason for our actions, and how satisfied we are with ourselves have a lot more impact in the result.
Given the impact our energy has on the results of everything we do, although not tangible, might be one of our most important assets we could explode.
Do you ever have asked yourself why there’s many people that begins some project with all the effort, the resources, the capabilities, and at the end they fail? I may guess that energy could be that little help to succeed or fail, depending on what you radiate. Good vibe might be the reason to get in to a rising spiral, where good things lead to better things, to nice people, and so on. Or the other way too.
Almost everybody knows about energies, but what I would like to encourage is to cultivate it, grow it, protect it, depurate it, and clean it, this despised valuable it’s changing my concept of luck.