Greener grass

Why is it that many of us have temporary satisfactions and can’t stop moving between sides? While working, we dream about being entrepreneurs and have our own business, but in the fears of independence we constantly seek for the security of a job. When single we fantasize about that special someone that will take us to another world with a secret smile, and when it finally arrives, a lot of small but painful disappointments appear and only hope our freedom and peace could return.
The same happens with vacations, resting, friends and many other things in life, not to mention pity objects.
Is it that what we want changes constantly? Is it that the situation we are in changes our point of view? Is it that we and the situation change at the same time?
I personally thing that change is objective in itself. To move, experiment, try new things, new places, new routes, new choices, etc.
The only thing we must accept is that although there are situations that seem perfect, everything is subject to change and we should face transition normally and not expect to force untenable alignments.

Coincidence? I don’t believe it.

I had a plan to make some interviews to different kind of people to try to understand how every person by itself lives in a unique world. I just had to find people with diverse backgrounds and interesting enough to begin. I had some ideas but not as exciting as I wanted. Yesterday I received an email from a friend I knew 11 years ago when he was 5, and lived in the jungle with no electricity, no bathrooms, no hospitals and in the middle of a conflict between several armed groups. Now he’s a professional football player at 16, and he’s coming to Brazil for some trials with a team. Could it get more fascinating?
What are the odds? We’ll I think almost zero, I want to understand it as destiny’s little help when someone is looking for what he wants. As Paulo Coelho said in one of his books, the universe conspires in favor of those who follow what they want.
We don’t have to have everything planned every time, maybe if we trust, some of the uncertainties will helps us achieve what we want instead of creating obstacles. Let’s go for it, it’s going to happen.

Reminders

After two and a half years of recovery, medicines, exercise and a healthy diet I went to see my cardiologist. In a very optimistic mood, I requested the suspension of all the medicines, knowing that I followed all procedures strictly, felt very healthy, and had the confidence of finishing a half marathon. For me, I had a heart as healthy and strong as anyone without any previous heart problems, and I thought it was enough time now: I could skip medicines and continue with a healthy life.
Did you forget what happened? Was his answer. After some time, everybody forgets. He said. Those words came to my mind not just as the health issue, but as a reminder of the fragility of our lives. It could end anytime, am I living accordingly? I am, but although I would like to live a 100+ years, life is lent. I got a huge reminder with an earthquake too, and not so long ago when I crossed a highway that I though was one way only. We have reminders from time to time, and I think is only to feed our desire to live, to push us to follow what we want, to make those steps we are afraid of, and to helps us understand we still have to do something here. Is a clear message every time: still have time!! Go, go, go!!!

New posts and update

As the initial objective of this blog, I wanted to describe all the change process that happened during my re-birth, and after all the stages already included, there have not been changes in the way I face life and its situations.
My life as a hole, moved towards an inside search for happiness, a release of self created problems and preoccupations and a complete positive attitude for everything that happens, and I have been living very happy since.
In recent months, I’ve been enjoying all the positive effects of this new way to understand and live a life, having perfect days and playing to win. As every process, during the changes I had to think how to approach situations, and now it’s a natural and fluent new attitude. I’m just looking for new ways to enhance this happiness, of course, all of them internal. No success to date.
As I want to continue writing, I’ll be making updates with not only internal changes as they occur, but daily life situations and thoughts that might catch my attention.
For now, as an update, just lo let you know that I’m very happy with my new life, I’m full of plans and projects, personal projects that keep me dreaming and wanting to live every day at its maximum. Some have been already developed, as my first steps in music, traveling, meditation and physical challenges, and other just in early stages as a future book, speed or a passion that might become a business. There’s so much to do and just 24 hour days!!

Swimming lessons

So I was wondering why the change from China to Brazil. There were many reasons to pick China, but the main reason was spiritual. In the process of looking for happiness, and after realizing the search should be inside, I was looking for a friendly environment to develop spirituality, and nothing like the biggest Buddhist country in the world. I wanted to learn to swim, so I choose a quiet, not very deep pool to begin. Coming to Brazil, and specifically to Sao Paulo, was like falling in the sea for my first swim.
I thought that the process of moving to another country, where I would not have any family or friends, where I would be completely alone for a lot of time, would be easy in China, as westerns are an attraction, many people wants to be friends, and there’s not much social pressure as there is in western countries.
After almost three months in Brazil, I realized that at the end it was better to fall in the sea with high waves and sharks, as swimming was a matter of life and death. There was one weekend I almost drowned, but I remembered that the whole idea was to continue with the interior process and only then I began to float.
Although I loved the city and the country, was very happy with the job I came for, everyone of my colleagues was very special, and all the other issues as exercise, entertainment, food among other were on track, there was something missing. I was loosing the fight to my mind, having external quick sparkles of happiness only, instead of continuing the process of internal search for structural happiness. Feelings I had eliminated long time ago like frustration, envy and loneliness, where slaps that made me realize where I was going.
When finally I was aware that was moving backwards, that my life was trying to make it’s own path again without my consent, I took the wheel and got back on road. Happily I have been writing a roadmap I can always refer to.
As in any process we make mistakes. I took my eyes from the road for a second and when I realized, I was far away from I wanted to be. It’s a lesson that the social strength but overall the mind makes good use of weak times to get a hold of our lives control. Happiness is a continuous process, and a road that requires a lot of attention. Happiness is a verb that implies action, not an adjective that simulates a decision.

Perfect days

There were a lot of empty days before. I would wake up, go to work, go to the gym, and go to bed, nothing special. If those days were erased I wouldn’t mind. I had a plan, and a day like that supported the plan, but the day itself was meaningless.

After my incident, being in the hospital for two weeks and with endless limitations during the first months, I missed a lot of simple things that were present everyday but I wouldn’t value. But after thinking that I almost die, and that I would have lost everything, simple things and moments became very valuable. A second pair of eyes opened in my head and enabled me to enjoy everyday sights.

A perfect day was a difficult to get before. A new business in my job, a great played baseball game, time well spent in a great place with my girlfriend or my friends, something unusual had to happen. With the new pair of eyes, simple days became perfect days. Being able to be healthy, be alive, share with my family and friends, being able to perform activities as good as possible it’s even a reason for satisfaction. 

Yesterday I had a walk with a pair of friends, it wasn’t only a way to get from one place to another, but the walk, the weather, the landscapes, and the time shared made my day a wonderful day. Besides what it is happening in my life and where it’s going, every moment counts, and makes me grateful for being alive.  There’s no way I would let one day escape from my memory now, everyone has joys to remember for a lifetime.

Million dollar baby

What would you do if someone give you a million dollars?
Buy a house? Travel around the world? Study? Give to the ones who need most? Learn about painting, music, or any other art you ever wonder about? Invest to get more for the future? Live on the rent? Party every day? Drink ? Bet? Pay debts? Buy a summer house in Bora Bora? Move to Paris? To Hong Kong? To London? To LA? Start your own business? Read? Built a hotel in a paradise beach? Buy Google shares? Buy more Google shares? Shopping? Shoes? Clothes? Donate it all?
Would you get stressed for the steps to receive the money? Which bank? Which account? A check? Today or tomorrow? Debit card?
Would it be a possibility to leave the money in an account and don’t do anything with it?
I think the answers to those questions are easy, but then why, If everyone of us, received something bigger, greater than just money, something with many more possibilities than currency, as it is to be alive, some of us keep our lives in stand by, letting things come and go and without getting the best use of it?
Many people know that are not satisfied with what they are doing or the way they are living, know what they want to do and how would they be happy, but just stay there waiting for something that is no coming? Would you need help with you million dollars? You need someone to say to you what to do with the money? How to spend it?
A life has millions of times the possibilities money has, but many people just stay with the money at the bank without living the dreams they know they have.
If you have the money, and want to travel to Bali, go buy the ticket!!! Nobody is going to do it for you.
And one prize condition, money it’s no cumulative. You don’t get two lives the next time.